Goodbye, Visual Basic!

I'm so fudging happy to be done with my Visual basic exam.

It wasn't hard at all. Actually, I barely prepared for it. Just made some book tabs and wrote where to find everything that I needed from the study guide. Okay, maybe I did a little preparation, but nothing that took longer than 30 minutes. I know that I aced it though.

There's the prettiest guy ever that I just saw in the library, haha.

I just scored $60 from book buyback. I'm thinking I'm gonna go buy some tilapia. I get paid on Thursday so I'd be buying it then anyway, and I've got a long break coming up. Yeah if anything it'll save me the drive.

I'm getting nervous that my Japanese final might be today. I thought it was tomorrow but someone just posted that a group from my class are studying together, I should probably go double check. Fuck I hope it's not today. Today I want to go home and play guitar.

Alrighty gonna get going and get this straightened out just in case.

peace.

Man, has it really been six days since I've last written?

Guess you could say things've been going good, then. I've been meaning to write but I've been so busy that I don't even know where to start really. I'm officially in week 11 of winter quarter which really means I'm coming down to the end. Still struggling with this procrastination problem but I discovered a way to get me inspired to work that allowed me a couple hours of patience last night. Still struggling with the last couple chapters in accounting, but I'm working on it.... This wednesday I have a big test that dictates whether or not I have to take the final, so obviously it's very important. I really, really don't want to have to take the final-- especially when it's next THURSDAY which means I'll be stressed out about it nearly all week. No. No. Just no. That being said, tonight and tomorrow I'm gonna make sure to get a good amount of studying done for that test.

This is literally what code in visual basic looks like, and we're expected to write this and understand what each part of the code is doing. Luckily Wolf is nice and realizes a lot of us are just taking the class to graduate, so she doesn't make the tests/quizzes too hard.

Right now I'm in the library, so I'm gonna start working on my visual basic projects. I don't really know how far I'll get. To be honest I've really checked out mentally in that class so it's hard to get any work done. I just hate the material and it seems to pointless to me. That and my know it all classmates make me cringe.

My mom doesn't read my blog, so I might as well write about this here...

I met up with Connor this last weekend. Yes, the Connor. I really never thought I'd see him again, but he suddenly contacted me on facebook so I figured why not. When we got together (not in a sexual way, mind you...) we clicked really well again. It's weird, when we talk it's just so effortless and it turns out we know a ton of the same people. He hasn't changed that much, he's still a big ego driven, stubborn asshole but at the same time he's really sweet and easy to get along with. He's become a really talented singer, which he showed off when I was there. Seriously though, he's very good... He's a lot more talkative than he was back when we were dating, and he brags a lot. It's funny, seeing him was sort of like the equivalent of a ten year highschool reunion, tons of gloating. I did a bit of this myself. Talked about breaking a record in tennis for most consecutive wins, talked about my awesome GPA, how I'm almost done with my AA... but that was pretty much it. He's got a list a mile long of all the shit he's done since we've last seen eachother-- some of it I would of rather not heard. Something tells me the gloating will stop though if he continue to hang out, he was probably just trying to impress me or something, which is understandable.

i'm gonna try to dig up a picture on photobucket of what we USED to look like on my old photobucket account...

hahahaha, that is fucking precious. We were sixteen.

I don't have a picture of him that's recent, but he pretty much looks the same aside from having these crazy dreadlocks that he's working on. In his facebook picture he's got this crazy long hair that's about the length of mine but now it's just completely destroyed because he's doing dreads naturally. It'll probably look neat enough when it's done, but right now it made me cring.

My mom would probably kill me if she knew I was hanging out with him again, which is why I'm keeping it quiet. I'm not sure if we'll actually hang out again. We had a really good time when we did this weekend, but you know how things  go. If anything it was just interesting to catch up and see what eachother have been up too. We smoked and talked for hours at his place. He's still the same pothead, but he's less of a punk than he was when we were that age. His mom still makes really incredible food. I thought it'd be a lot more awkward to see her but it wasn't. The whole situation was pretty comfortable.

 Apparently Connor just got out of an on and off relationship that lasted three years. He was pretty surprised when I told him I've only been in one "relationship" in a couple years. I was also honest with him when I briefly mentioned by merry-go-round of bullshit that I've been through with men. Luckily he didn't expect me to expand much on it, and went on to talk about his own problems.

So yeah, me and Connor no longer have any beef with eachother. Time has a tendency to do that.

Well, better get going. Got a lot of work to do. It's already 2:00, I'd like to be out of here by 4'. Spring daylight savings time makes me feel like I'm even more behind all the time.

peace.

Ohh, and this week I'm learning Blue by A Perfect Circle on guitar. Me and Mitch played Schism yesterday, but I still have a lot of work to do.

Let's try an experiment. 40.

Last night ended up being fantastic. I went over to Heather's after dealing with Lindy's lack of knowing what the plan was for three hours+. I was done with it and Heather said it didn't seem like there were any actual plans, so we hung out there instead. We made some really tasty rice pilaf from rice they purchased in Jamaica.

It's unfortunate that it's already 2:30 because I have a lot of work to get done, but if I play my cards right this will be a very productive Sunday and I will be very ready for the following week. I have an idea, I'm gonna try to plan this exactly down to the hour and see if I'm more likely to get it all done.

Everything on this list MUST be done in order to do this:

1. One SOLID hour of studying Japanese. This means no half assed, doing something else in the background shit. 3:00-4:00 PM. I will get this done and out of the way to warm up for other studying.

2. Guitar for an hour. By the time I'm done with studying Japanese I might want a little break so this will give me that time. I've been improving a lot because the past couple days I've "removed the training wheels," so to speak. Originally I was playing with my hands positioned TOTALLY WRONG. I realized this after reading an article about it, and how the position of your thumb can greatly dictate the amount of space your fingers can make. It's incredible. Anyway that helps, still needs a lot of work, still kind of hurts to play in the proper position, but I'm working on it. 4:10-5:10.

3. Accounting homework from 5:15-6. Get done with what I can, then start getting dinner ready. Make something small for myself, maybe take some caffiene, and keep going.

4. Do something for exercise. I'm intending on doing some pilates right now before 3' but do some other exercise during this hour.

5. Visual Basic project after 7' PM. Read over Chapters 1 and 2 one more time to try to get a better idea of the material. I feel myself slipping behind in there and I can't let myself. This should take until 8:30 or so.

I wonder if planning a day to this degree will make it unenjoyable, or super productive. We will see right now.

peace. 

Numbers might make me feel more stable.

Today is just another day.

This is the first sober blog I've done in awhile. Actually I'm intending on being sober for the next week.. at least until Friday. I really need to focus or I'm going to be screwed. Katelynn came over last night so of course I had to introduce her to the new vaporizor, but of course I didn't get anything done last night either. Today is different though, I can't afford for it not to be.

I've got some stuff to get done. Gotta do all those Japanese Kanji worksheets, study the new grammar, do accounting homework, and last but not least make flashcards for my Visual Basic vocabulary. I can do that, right? Right. Plan. Lets go. No more facebook for the rest of the day, it just makes me more depressed. I want to kick this depression and maybe studying will help. Today is the third day I've felt this way. At least there's no work-work until Thursday.

peace.

I'm using this picture as my first cover on the stupid facebook timeline. I switched to it to try it out and now it's not letting me switch back. How sad.

That amazing feeling I get....

When I successfully complete something that I didn't understand before.

Just got done with my Visual Basic homework, and I'm almost sure I did all of the projects right. I'm also enjoying the fact that I can add little bits of customization to my projects as well, like background images. I'd post a picture of my first project but it's on my junk drive and I'm too lazy. Visual Basic itself is a drag and drop interface, which makes setup a breeze. Reminds me almost of setting up a yearbook page. But yeah, figuring out the program took me a few hours, but now that I've got it I feel set.

I also have an accounting quiz tomorrow that I need to study for... I'll probably just look over the chapter. Oh, and a Japanese quiz on top of that. That should be semi easy though, the vocabulary isn't that hard this week. It's pretty stressful but I'm trying to stay as calm as possible and take things one step at a time. My planner helps a lot with that.

Living with low blood sugar is hard because if I don't frequently snack during the day I get really weak and sick feeling in only a few hours. I try to snack on healthy food, like cereal and stuff.

I'm so hungry right now. I feel empty.... I'm sitting in the room across from the library Epicenter. The Collab room. I'd print out my assignments but I have literally no change to purchase the prints. That being said, hopefully I'll get the opportunity to print them sometime in class. I don't have a break between my accounting class and Visual basic to do some last minute catchup.

I sort of wish I wasn't taking accounting. I don't enjoy it very much and it's hard work. I'm still trying to get the basics of it down but it's really weird... thinking backwards and forwards and trying to remember all the terms and procedures. It'll be good for me to get through this class though. It might not be the easiest task, but it'll help me out a lot in the long run. The purpose of being here (and sometimes I forget this...) is to learn, and if anything coming out of this accounting class will give me a perspective on what my Dad does every day, as well as help me with budgeting later down the line.

The reason that I haven't gone home yet is that I'm going to a bonfire over in Kennewick at 7' or so. I'm gonna leave here around 6' and grab some taco bell or something, I need to eat or I'm going to be miserable. I need to try to study some Japanese before I go. Mehh. I really don't think my brain has the capacity to get through accounting studying right now.... neeeeed food.

yours,
Emily