My thoughts on pageants...

Payday is sweet.

Today is especially sweet because I don't have too much to spend money on except for some dorky kahki pants that I have to wear for the uniform change. Right now I've got approximately $1,700 in my bank account. My mom informed me yesterday that I need to be saving THOUSANDS by the time I leave and should get more hours, which I intend to do during the summer. Spring quarter has sort of been my vacation, I guess you could say. Not from CBC entirely, but I feel like only having one class at cbc is nothing to stress out over. I get my Japanese homework in, try my best to learn all the vocab... Yeah, my interest isn't there anymore but of course I'm still going to try my hardest.

I'm not the only one that's only taking one class this quarter.. then some others are still on the regular hard class load. I know that Andrew is taking another class, but he seems to skip it to hang out with us in the morning. Alex is only taking one cbc class I'm pretty sure but she's still in highschool so has that to deal with. Poor Hannah has FOUR classes. Taylor I'm not sure, he told me that he's planning on taking 21 credits this summer in order to graduate before transferring elsewhere but that sounds like Hell! Especially during the summer when time is limited.

I'm dying my hair right now. I accidentally went to bed really early last night but I'd already gotten my guitar playing in so it was okay. Jacob didn't give me TOO much new stuff to work on this week, aside from starting Under a Glass Moon. It's going to be quite a challenge but he told me we're going to "chunk through it." His favorite album is  Train of Thought, and I think he knows all the songs on that album along with a ton more but never really got into Images and Words. He's facinating.. I want to pick his brain for a lot of music.

STOP. I don't have a crush on him. Don't go there. I respect him and look up to how brilliantly he can play and I'm super stoked to be getting lessons from him (which is why I talk about this a lot). Well, that and it's taking up almost all of my time. But do not think I have any interest in him that way. Aside from that he has a girlfriend.

I ordered Guitar Pro 6 for $40. It's going to come in the mail. I'm going to abandon songsterr for the most part, though the idea of dealing with the guitarpro website and downloading tabs from there is going to be a huge pain in the ass. Guitar pro 6 is SOOO cool though, you can actually play along with the SOUND of the guitar instead of that dumb MIDI shit.

High Glitz pageant girl.

In my house we periodically watch Toddlers and Tiaras or that other pageant show with the annoying flamer as the host. I always thought my Mom and sister were just watching it to laugh at how ridiculous it is like I do but actually...

"National American Miss is an opportunity like no other. You’ll gain poise, self-confidence, and valuable communication skills. You’ll feel good about yourself and gain the competitive edge to succeed later in whatever field you may choose, from modeling to business. Check it out now!"(by the official website, http://www.namiss.com/)

My sister is planning on entering this pageant soon.

It's called National American Miss. She's wanted to do it for awhile, and I'm pretty sure the first round of auditions is happening here in the tri cities.

It's a pageant so they grade you on:

-How good you look.

-How good you look and how much poise you've got in Formal wear.

-How good you look and how much like a machine you can speak while you introduce yourself.

-How well you can answer some stupid questions.

-How much community involvement you have WHILE looking good.

Ha ha okay, maybe not so much on the last one.. but honestly, pageants are the most objectifying things I have ever seen. They're old fashioned and ridiculous in my opinion. At least this one doesn't appear to be high glitz, good God. The prizes are a not-so "all expenses paid" trip to Disney Land, some scholarships are available, cash, etc... Typical pageant prizes that are completely ridiculous because you spend a FORTUNE on the pageant itself so it's not like you're making any money when you earn $1,000 cash. In fact I've seen pageants where the dresses cost at least 5 grand.

BUT! I will be the first one to admit that I would fail miserably at a pageant, thus I have respect for my sister doing this and I will be entirely supportive of her decision. If she's happy and gets something out of it then great. If she wins and gets a huge amount of confidence and gets even more cocky than she already is then great. If she loses and gets knocked down a few pegs from her high horse ALSO great.

pageant photos have ALWAYS  creeped me out. This isn't the worst one that I've seen. I just hate how parents try to make their daughters look like something they're not with a bunch of makeup and other bullshit. To me, little girls should be outside playing in the dirt, playing dressup, being imaginative... being kids!

Nothing like sexualizing your kid with fake tans, hair extensions, revealing clothes and layers upon laters of makeup.





Because in my opinion, unless a young girl WANTS to do pageants and enjoys the primping, pageants the closest thing to rape. All the pain these girls go through to get their eyebrows plucked, their face skin burns from the makeup changes, the uncomfortable costumes, the bitter taste of the glue from their fake teeth.... All this work to be judged on whose kid is prettiest, it's sick and wrong! Makeup is so wrong on a little girl, so unnatural.

As for my sister's pageant, if adult women want to spend a fortune just to have four people that mean absolutely nothing tell them they're the best then be my guest. I actually look forward to watching this pageant, wherever it might be... It all sounds really scammy, like they make you pay a ton of money at each stage. Sort of like that "star search" deal that they had at the Red Lion every year where they "search" for models when really it's just a way to get people to pay a ton of money to get their kid's picture taken. Never trust talent agencies, modeling scouts, etc... especially if they make you pay money up front. Luckily, I was never very poised or had any interest in that sort of thing so I never had to go through that kind of disappointment.

On the bright side, my sister would be doing this with Katie so if it DOES turn out to be really scammy, my sister won't be alone when she dumps it. Katie is freaking beautiful but I worry about her. She's got a lot of the same orthorexic tendencies that I do-- obsessive working out, extreme caution to what she eats; I think she's actually worse than I am. Pageants like this where there's super skinny girls everywhere probably isn't going to help that situation...

Sarcastic smile, ahh! Here's what my new hair dye job looks like, I actually did most of it on my own. Lol notice how when I'm faking a smile it doesn't look good, thus I could not do pageants, hahaha.

It's 9:20 am. I'm in really no rush to get to school so I'm gonna play a half hour of guitar or so, take the laundry down and eat a little before I go. Gotta work til 10 tonight so I'm enjoying my time here.

peace.



practice log for week 3:

Day 1, 4/25: 190 min
Day 2, 4/26: 75 min
Day 3, 4/27: 290 min
Day 4, 4/28: 185 min
Day 5: 4/29: 220 min
Day 6, 4/30: 219 min
Day 7, 5/1: 220 min
_____________
1399 min
23 hours

Nice. : ) Though again I don't know if I've actually improved since last week. How sad, haha. Hopefully once I get through all this mechanical stuff we can get into learning some songs... All of the exercises that i've been doing have been cleaning up my tone quite a bit but right now I have nothing to show for all the practicing I've been doing because I still haven't memorized very many songs.

Alright I gotta get out of here, in the library and I'm getting anxious.

peace.

Self spoilage. :)

So stoked.

I've wanted this product for a long time! I put a little on my arms a minute ago and I can already see a little bit of a difference. This girl named Tia who's an expert on self tanning said for me to exfoliate really good before using it, though, so I should probably hold off really putting any on until tonight after a bath.

The random money spending was triggered by finding a $30 target giftcard lying in my drawer from 2009. I held it in my wallet for about two weeks deciding what I REALLY wanted right now to avoid impulse purchases in the future.

I got:

1. Million Lashes voluminous mascara

2. Nivea lotion (obviously!)

3. Dark brown hairdye (6.99)

4. A slanted eyeliner brush

5. A flower hair accessory, black

6. oil blotting sheets (50)

7. Makeup remover clothes by Elf

This was all just barely over $30, I think I only spent $5 out of pocket so that was really nice. I'll have to thank my Grandma, even if the card is from three birthdays ago.

Japanese today was pretty annoying because we watched a TV show after doing our kanji quiz. Granted I enjoyed the break, but God the people in those shows can be so loud and annoying at times and it's nearly impossible to understand exactly what is going on. Their humor is a lot different than ours, but I was laughing a lot at certain parts. Idk, I just felt a little anxious sitting in there watching a show when I could be doing other things. I decided to make flashcards during the video and would randomly look up and ask Hannah about what was going on, I'm sure she enjoyed that, hahaha.

Today I haven't played any guitar yet but I'm gonna get started here in a few minutes after I grab a little snack. Haven't eaten hardly anything since this morning. I don't know if I've lost weight nessasarily, but I feel like my body has slimmed down somewhat this year. I was worried about losing too much weight unknowingly if I continue my strict eating habits so every day I try to eat something that balances it out. Maybe a few hersheys kisses and a couple mini peanut butter cups, or a handful of frosted animal cookies.

I try to eat as healthy as I can, but a lot of the time food just doesn't look good to me. I'll look in the cabinet, practically everything looks unappetizing to me, so I'll maybe make some cereal and eat as much of it as I can just to nourish my body. Granted, I'm sure if there was more easy access junk food around in my house it'd be a totally different story. My mom and sister just went grocery shopping yesterday and got all my favorites so I should be okay for a couple weeks.

peace.



Cleaning out my closet (or my mom's computer), my Japanophile phase pictures.

I feel so flattered today!

I posted a picture that I took in my room this morning because I figured I needed a new default, something a little less black and white to lighten things up. I posted the picture and it has like 18 likes on it. I don't really know why someone "liking" something should mean anything, but it does make me very complimented. Speaking of changes, I think I might change the background on this blog. It's all very clique and I like to change it up every so often. Not like anyone reads this thing anyway. Don't blame them, this is super boring. To be honest I prefer it this way.

Onto today's topic!



"Beauty and the Beast seemed like it all was really brown. The whole thing was just so brown and orange and yellow, like Burger King or something. I don't think I would have liked Beauty and the Beast at any age."
-Mike Judge(an awesome quote I heard earlier, completely unrelated, but the picture is.)

I absolutely cannot stand anything bento or "kawaii" related anymore. Because Kawaii itself is a breed of animation and products that can't be matched by anything in the West yet, I've just reached an absolute burnout. Seeing this picture above of a bento box makes me laugh at how much time and effort I put into those stupid little things! They provided barely any food and sometimes I would put items in there just for show because they looked good and knew damn well that later it wouldn't be very tasty. Ugh, I tried. Deleted on my mom's computer, thought I'd further immortalize it online. I'm trying to clear out some of the seas of images I've stored on this poor device. I'll just upload the ones that stand out.

When I was shopping for a cosplay dress, I saved this because I thought it was cute. That ridiculous thing. What the Hell was I thinking?

Yeah, no. Good ridance to that, forever.

Never uploaded because I hate this picture of me.

This is actually me this summer. Uhm, yeah, I think I'm going to start wearing at least some tinting lotion good lord, it was NOT nessasary to strive to be that pale in freaking July.

A sort of cute picture of me that I never uploaded and now I don't see why, it's a lot better than the picture that I did choose because God forbid you should actually see a little of my top lip. That's another thing, the top lip thing that I do in pictures is something I copied from none other than....

Fucking magibon!!! See a resemblance?

www.youtube.com/mririan

Yeah, wasn't too real about my personality there for awhile. I wanted so badly to be like Magibon, or Margaret Adams. Cute, shy, almost nervous... emulating a Japanese "kawaii" persona in a Western world. It inspired me to the point that I actually decided to LEARN Japanese, and it pushed me up until this point.

This point that I started playing guitar (this started around Christmas. Solid hour a day, THAT was the rule) and realized that music interested me a lot more than Japanese things. I wanted to learn all about it and experience it, as I'd always been envious of people that could shred on guitar. I decided that what the Hell, i'm going to actually put in the practice time to do this. This was a very good decision because it has helped my confidence significantly to develop a skill that nobody can take away from me. That, and coming closer to graduation and facing the REAL world.

I'm like, humiliated posting these you guys I'm not going to lie.

I'm not going to say that Magibon didn't have a possitive influence. When I discovered her videos, I was in the stage where I was wearing.. well, GUYS shirts-- black band shirts that covered everything, it was basically like a niqab of my femininity. I felt like I had something to prove my Junior year or so, after going through the Hell of my sophomore year I just wanted people to know I didn't give a shit anymore about what they thought and I was done trying to do myself up for them.

So because of Magibon's influence, I started really getting into cutesy Japanese style, mannerisms, and developing a way to become a mystery to people. But that's not me. I'm not a mystery, I'm an open book. I love to talk, listen. Watch some of Magibon's videos, she doesn't do ANYTHING! She just sits there, stares at the camera, and says a few very basic things in Japanese. It's worked for her very well, she's become almost a figurehead in Japan, had her 15 minutes of fame I guess. But that's her. I'm me. Granted, there are some really cute Japanese clothes and such and I will continue to dress as I please, I do not intend on trying to be something I'm not. I'm happy with myself and feel I look the most beautiful in yoga pants or a black tank top and jeans.

Edit: August 25th. I am not an open book by any means any more, actually I am a mystery to most people I work with and go about day to day life with because I no longer share unnessasary information with people that really don't need to know. It took me awhile to learn how to control things that I said. Really only over the last year have I become less of a "negative nancy" or someone that just... says too much. I can't explain it. I'm happy Magibon helped me be quiet so I could step back and realize the way I was behaving. 

So thank you Magibon for getting me back into looking feminine. In my first encounters with Jack, I was in the band shirt phase but then over time when I was with him I actually WANTED to look good. So she came along right at the correct time I suppose and long after me and Jack stopped hanging out I started dressing a lot cuter. Now I'm sort of in limbo. I don't wear band shirts very often, I have a couple and occasionally I'll wear my old ones to work out or go running. I'm not too preppy or accessorized either.





I often find misc pictures from cosplay conventions that I saved for some use. Deleting these...

It goes without saying that I no longer want to cosplay. I am going to continue to comment people's photos, though. The only possibility that I might cosplay once more is if I go to RadCon again, because you sort of have open territory to dress however you want. As for anime conventions specifically, I'm done cosplaying. To be honest I can't even remember the last time I watched an entire episode of anime, aside from Sailor Moon at the beginning of the year. I watched like 12 episodes of it and I was DONE. But do I enjoy hearing about it from my friend Samantha? Yeah, it's a neat story and it's actually cool to hear about and I love the animation. But I just don't have the time to sit down and watch that stuff. I'm so preoccupied with everything else and like it that way.

I guess the best way to describe how I live now could be related to Confucius, a Chinese philosipher that teaches for people to strive to be the absolute best they can be and live their lives to their fullest potential. This is often why Chinese, Korean, Japanese and Thai people work as hard as they do. Unlike mainstream Confucianism followers, however, I'm not Asian, and I don't have parents that could potentially disown me if I don't do perfectly. I just work extremely hard and obsess on perfection, but it doesn't mean I have an OCD. I'm happy I recently discovered what Confucianism is because it made me feel less abnormal. Like, I'm abnormally hard on myself and I thought it was an OCD.

2012 has been such a good year so far.

I talked to my mom today about getting ahold of Western about my rooming situation. She said that they APPROVED my housing!! WOO! So we are AHEAD of the game, and because I already submitted which building I wanted months ago, I'm now good to go.

I decided not to use the MyRoomate system online because I want to keep my roomates a mystery. I sort of want to get paired with random people so I can get the experience sans the predictability of MyRoomate. It's probably a good idea though so I don't get a Kelsey. Or worse. I could get some morman that gets pissed off about my pot smoking. Which reminds me, I have no idea how I'm going to smoke up there. This might be silly because it's such a liberal school. I don't know, i'm crossing my fingers that I get a room with a window of some sort.

I am not applying to be on a quiet floor because I can work around loud noises. I have in my own house before and at school, it shouldn't be a problem. I'd much rather have the freedom to come and go as I please than not, because I'm not a sneaky person you guys.. 

I won't say that I'm not still fascinated with the anime subculture.

And I have met some really awesome people!

But I just don't feel like I relate to this anymore.

Being a guest at one of these cons was one thing but actually volunteering was an entirely different story. I really did not have a good time this year, it was a ton of work at the maid cafe and after it was over I felt a little silly/embarrised about having walked around serving a bunch of guys in costumes and closet lolitaphiles for hours on end. And I'd driven to Spokane to do this! Very interesting experience. It cracks me up that Guy Stevens was trying to get ahold of me when I was posting these pictures that are considered completely wacky by mainstream society, but when I look back on it now he wasn't any big deal at all and don't know why I was so enamoured.

In all of this let me say that I do not discredit anyone who chooses to be into Kawaii things, anime, etc. I don't feel like I am better than anyone for no longer liking it because everyone has the right to do what they want to do and shouldn't be harrassed for it if it's not hurting anyone.

I just felt like sharing that, I guess. Waiting for Avis to get home. I've still gotta do my hour of "Freeplay" on the guitar but I'm done after that for the night because I already got post of my picking exercises done in the morning. I don't know if I'm getting better or not, I'd hope so. I hope I'm also practicing enough for what Jacob said we're going to start on this upcoming Wednesday. I never really know what's good enough.

Got a 92 on a Japanese test because of all my craptastic particle usage. Damn, it's like, I know the vocabulary and the grammar to the point that I can confidently put things together, but when it comes down to the minor details and kanjis... errg! I can read kanjis fine, but they have to be in some sort of context or I'm screwed. Furigana is always nice too.

Alrighty well gtg, sister is here with groceries.

peace







21 hours is MORE than I work in a week.

Wow, blogger created a new layout that I don't like. Thanks Google.

Now that I've wasted a couple minutes figuring out how to post this, i'm gonna post how many minutes I did this week on the guitar and see if I beat last weeks.

This week I got pretty fast at arpeggios and 2-string sweep picking. Unfortunately yesterday I was a complete dumbass and slammed my finger into the door so my arpeggios are a little bit slower and sloppier because of the pain. It sucks. It's gotten a lot better since yesterday though so hopefully if I run through them a little bit in the car before my lesson I'll be able to get that same speed. yes, I'll play in the car... what a nerd, haha. Last minute perfectionist attitude.

Alrighty, so here's my minute totals.

4/18: 190 min
4/19: 160 min
4/20: 200 min
4/21: 170 min
4/22: 200 min
4/23: 175 min
4/24: 190 min
_____________
1285 min
21 hours

Wow. And the thing is, that's not an exageration, at all. I time EVERYTHING and I pause the timer anytime I leave to go do something (unless it's just to go pee or something, that barely takes a minute). Only sixty minutes a day of the goal (180) is freeplay, the rest is just practicing all the picking exercises.

I don't know if my playing actually matches the amount of time I spend doing this in a week.. I can barely hear an improvement in my overall playing, but I like to think it sounds a little bit cleaner now. This week I worked on the song "Unforgiven" by Metallica, and it's done for the most part aside from the solo.

well, better get going. Gonna go get a bagel at Some Bagels, yum! I've got a big Japanese exam tomorrow that i'm not too excited for but I'll do fine if I squeeze an hour in tonight and another two tomorrow morning.

peace.

My wheels in constant motion . . .

This is my current cover photo on facebook.

I'm not particularily religious, but I think this is clearly about marijuana and I found that sort of funny that I've never heard anyone mention this before. It could potentially offend someone, but I doubt it. It's not like I captioned this "HEY LOOK GUYZ POT!!!" I'm just gonna leave this up for a couple days and see if anyone notices or "gets" it. I could be wrong, maybe it's not about marijuana at all. Lol or people that are totally naive are going to think I'm going super religious. Nope! I'm a spiritual person, but not religious by any means.

I've been listening to the Systematic Chaos CD by Dream Theater and so far I'm super impressed. I looove the song Constant Motion. I would love to learn how to play it and blow Logan's brain off, bah haha. That reminds me that Robert's party is going to be on Saturday. He said it's not going to be a guitar thing but almost everyone that he's inviting plays guitar so I'd assume I should have some sort of plan in case Robert asks me to play. It sucks though, I can't actually play WITH them because I'm not good enough (well, that, and I don't know any of the songs that they've learned to play together). Like, they know a lot of songs from the Black album by Metallica. I like Metallica and everything, but to actually take the time and learn how to play their songs takes a LOT of initiative.

 In order for me to spend hours upon hours learning a song, I need to make sure it's something I won't get too sick of.

1.	"Enter Sandman"	Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, Kirk Hammett	5:31
2.	"Sad But True"	Hetfield, Ulrich	5:24
3.	"Holier Than Thou"	Hetfield, Ulrich	3:47
4.	"The Unforgiven"	Hetfield, Ulrich, Hammett	6:26
5.	"Wherever I May Roam"	Hetfield, Ulrich	6:44
6.	"Don't Tread on Me"	Hetfield, Ulrich	3:59
7.	"Through the Never"	Hetfield, Ulrich, Hammett	4:05
8.	"Nothing Else Matters"	Hetfield, Ulrich	6:28
9.	"Of Wolf and Man"	Hetfield, Ulrich, Hammett	4:16
10.	"The God That Failed"	Hetfield, Ulrich	5:07
11.	"My Friend of Misery"	Hetfield, Ulrich, Jason Newsted	6:49
12.	"The Struggle Within"	Hetfield, Ulrich	3:52

Track list for the black album. Thanks Wikipedia.

I've liked almost all of these songs at one point, aside from of Wolf and Man and Through the Never. All of these songs are good, but to hear them over and over and over... This week I've been learning The Unforgiven because I think those guys know that one and it's not too hard. That, and it's standard tuning. I made a goal this week that I'd work on one song that's standard tuning, because Drop C is a pain in the ass to get down too and it requires me to GO ONLINE and tune the damn guitar down before i can play anything. Maybe I should get one of those portable tuners.  

Connor told me that I definately need to start picking up acoustic again, and I'm beginning to think he's right, it'd definately help me be more well rounded. Problem is, the frets are so far spaced and it's hard to find a song that I like on acoustic. Unforgiven might actually sound pretty cool, though.

I'll stop talking about that.

Japanese today was good, even if Taylor and Sean harrassed me about using a smartwater bottle. Taylor was like, "Are you trying to be cool with that? That smartwater bottle?" which I responded "Yup!! is it working?" He he. They shut up about it after that.

I'm gonna get going, getting hungry and light headed.

peace.

current party invite list, and the weird greasy bakesale.

Another week passed, hello week 3 of Spring Quarter. Yeah, week 3? Something.

I'm still just... so unexplainably thrilled with the fact that I'm only taking one class at CBC, though part of me wishes I wasn't taking ANY classes but that'd cause burnout of this guitar hobby pretty fast if I didn't get a chance to get out every day. This week has been going okay, I've been playing as much as I can every day and I've been improving little by little with the alternate picking and arpeggios. The alternate picking is a lot easier for me because you barely even have to touch the strings but the arpeggios are hard because you almost have to pull on your previous string as if you're strumming but still have a clean, muffle free sound. Very tricky, I hope I get a half decent grasp of it by the end of this week.

It's not nearly as difficult to play for long periods of time anymore. Sometimes I'll cramp up a little in the shoulder but that's the extent of it.

So, here's my current open for revisions invite list for my party in June. This is in no particular order, though I'll try to categorize by how I've interacted with these people..

Current Invite List

1. Katelynn C.

2. Alan Y.

Best friend and her boyfriend, yeah!

3. Samantha

4. Shawn G.

5. Kevran R.

6. Rachelle G.

7. Aaron

Shawn and Samantha, of course. Kevran because we've been cool whenever I've gone over to "House." Rachelle and Aaron because they're badass, and fun

8. Abby S.

9. Taylor M.

10. Nathan S.

11. Gillian J.

12. Rhiannon J.

13. Tucker G.

14. Josh H.

15. Daisy M.

16. Caitlyn Sweeney

17. Kat L.

Oh shit it's the drama kids. Ha ha, well, I can honestly say the Johanson's have thrown some awesome parties so I hope mine can match up. I also hope Kat L. can come to the tri cities for it, she's hella fun to party with too.

18. Betsy W.

19. Caitlyn C.

20. Nathanael T.

21. Phil M.

22. Sean M.

23. Jon S.

24. Andrew W.

25. Hannah S.

26. Ashley B.

27. Alex (Shiro)

28. Brenna A.

Japanese class kids, yahoo!! haha

29. JJ

30. Thor B.

31. Cameron L.

32. Jessika B.

33. Louie

34. Patrick F.

35. Mitch H.

36. Heather

37. David (Heather's Bf)

38. Josh F.

39. Josh F.'s girlfriend Melanie

40. Kevin S.

41. Nate J.

People I've met at CBC, and people I've partied with

42. Denae

43. Jimmy

Sister's best friend and boyfriend, we can assume we'll be there helping out.

44. Geoff W.
45. Sheldon M.

46. Brittney D.

47. Robert M.

48. Chelsea C.

49. Dylan L.

50. Skyler F.

51. Tyler D.

52. Brad P.

53. Megan P.

54. Amanda B.

55. Mitch M.

56. Eugene M.

57. Lindy C.

People I forgot to mention earlier but are DEFINATELY invited too.

You might notice Katharine is "not invited." That's only because she's going to be in Los Angeles, if she's in town she's still of course welcome to come. This is a list of people that I almost know for sure if told in advance would be able to come to this because they're not moving or going on vacation that weekend that I know of.

Yup it's gonna be a hell of a time if I plan early, make sure everything is good to go when it starts, etc etc... It's pretty exciting. Like I said before, planning on getting a big projector set up in the backyard and have dubstep going by using Spotify radio. I'm also going to borrow a trampoline, set up a buffet table, and just let people go free and see what happens. It won't be boring and awkward with that many people, I can assure. There was some awkward standing around last year at the Japanese club party thing but it was still a success. I want this year to be WAY better, wee!

It's 7:00 pm. I worked until 3 today, typical Sunday shift. Got home and cooked myself something to eat and played guitar for an hour. I'm about to do some... YOU GUESSED IT!! exercise!! Then I better do a couple Japanese assignments. Didn't party this weekend, either. Guess I didn't feel a need too. I guess the stress of gas prices is making me more adapted to being at home when I'm not working, driving or at school.

I didn't end up buying Samantha a prom dress, reason being we drove all around the tri cities looking for a dress and we couldn't find any that fit or were the correct color. You'd be surprised how hard it is for anyone outside the thin frame to find a dress to wear. I don't think Samantha's body is abnormal by any means. We walked around 4th street in Pasco, the mall in Kennewick, David's Bridal, and back to her boyfriend's house. We're talking about $15 of gasoline in one day. I offered an alternative option of maybe taking a road trip instead of prom but she's really wanting to go to it. I did my best, but I honestly gave up. I hope Rachelle can help her out, I know she will and Samantha will look great and everything will work out perfectly in the end. I know it. But now, I need to focus on my own life and finances...

This upcoming Wednesday I won't have to pay for the lesson but the following week I will have to cash out $80. I've still been doing well on the dishes. Keeping up this routine has kept the house pretty tidy though when I get done with this blog I should probably sweep up my room. It's getting pretty narly in here, makes you realize how much filth is in the floors. I want to get them nice and clean for the new week.

What a boring life!! : P He he, my life was a *little* more interesting last Spring when I was taking Math 96 with Josh Fischer in the mastrabator kid's class. "Good job Chris!" Hahaha, poor Mr. Zhang.. Wow, that means it's almost been a year since the Guy Stevens insident started. That does seem like a long time ago now, in maturity, self worth, patience, etc etc... The end is in sight now, and I'm happy I'm done with bullshit, shady people like that.

I've been using rubbing alcohol on my fingertips to create calluses three times a day. It dries my skin up so it helps build resistance faster.Bought it at Rite Aid for $3.99, wowowow!!!

Oh GOD, that reminds me...





rite aid had a freaking bakesale.

Those are the cookies I brought for it. They sold almost immediately, and were the first things to go! I knew it, who could resist, they're SOOO darling. I snapped this picture before work and uploaded it to facebook saying I got em at Viera's. They didn't taste too bad either, a little crunchy for my taste, and Mexican cookies tend to be a little bland, but overall pretty good. Anyway, MORE money for Children's Hospital. It was Claudia's idea, she set up the bakesale in the store on the back counter, which I thought was a little bizarre because.... uhm, who has a bakesale indoors? Especially when it was BEAUTIFUL outside.

That's besides the point though. Very sweet point, a little creepy, but sweet... and she left all the sweets on the side counter today with a tag that says "Pay at Register" so suddenly I'm selling baked goods along with people's Colon-Ade.

Idk it's all very weird. I gtg, gonna wash my face and do some cardio.

peace.