How can I expect perfection if I don't work for it.

Every test that I've taken in the last week, I got a low B. Even on one of my Japanese quizzes. A low freaking B. You know what that says to me? It says Emily, you're not working hard enough, you're spending too much time procrastinating and hanging out with people that don't do much themselves.

I need to change, asap, because I can't let my grades fall down the shit hole. There is no reason that I shouldn't get A's in my classes, and the only thing that's going to keep me from it is if I continue to make the bad choices that I've been making. All I do lately is smoke, listen to music, hang out with friends and play guitar. I haven't been dedicating nearly the amount of time an effort needed to get the grades that I want. It's obvious that I need a change, so I think for the next couple weeks I'm going to make it a point to not go out and only do what I have to do: Work and study, and occasionally hang out with friends if they're willing to come to me. Because this drive out to pasco in the middle of the night to drink at Jessika's house literally got me sick and I was unable to pay attention for the last couple days.

I'm in the library right now. It's almost 2. Katelynn should be coming over around 7' or something so that gives me a good four hours or so to work. It's just a matter of getting started. I'm so disappointed with myself lately.

peace.