55. Porno, really now?

Wow, February is coming to a close and I've yet to apply for housing because Western hasn't sent me my new student ID.

I am paranoid about this because I'm pretty sure it's set to send to my Mom's email instead of my own.. Though I did get an acceptance e-mail with my student ID number for Spring quarter. Because uhm yeah, thank God I decided not to do that. I also still need to apply for graduation/my AA. That I guess can wait though, considering I'm going to be stuck there for a couple more quarters.

I'm so sick of that fucking school. Well, I say that with love, as I do love my teachers that I've had there, and a lot of the people I've met. However, the routine is starting to fall on my shoulders. Hard. It's making me more and more irritated with little things that I do on a daily basis. Same routine, over and over. And worst of all, I feel like I've been there for too long. But honestly, is anybody watching? Probably no... even if it does feel sort of weird that I'm in my THIRD freakin year at this school because I was a dumbass my senior year and took CWP instead of taking a full credit load.... yadda yadda, I've wrote this so many times.

I just need to step back once again and accept where I am in my life right now and accept that it's okay to still be here, that nobody cares, and that I'm doing the best I can. I guess it's people's judgements that I imagine, which is really silly when I think about it.

I've been playing guitar for about 20 minutes. Giving my hands a little rest. Yesterday I hung out with Samantha and Shawn over at Shawn's house. Well, originally it was just me and Samantha but then we decided we were bored and wanted to go into Richland. Our intentions were to go to the Sunken Treasures but then I decided I really shouldn't be spending $10 on a game right now. I'm so cheap, I know, but now today I'm feeling glad that I didn't because my computer isn't letting me run PS1 games. (*I downloaded the software to do so one bored and lonely night hehe)

Here's a really good song by Bob Marley that I heard recently, to break up all the text.

Anyway, Shawn and his roomies live over in that part of Richland so me and Samantha drove over there. Shawn told us to wait inside for them to get back, because apparently he was in town with Karel, Suki (I have no idea what her real name is), Cody, and Nathan. When we got into Shawn's I grabbed Shawn's guitar and started playing tabs for a little while before they showed up. The reason that I do this is because Shawn's house is always sort of awkward for me because everyone there is really couple-y, and it sort of gives me a distraction while I hang out there so Sam can see Shawn.

I'm not talking down about Shawn's house, actually it's really fun there! Or at least last time it was. This time was semi awkward for a number of reasons.

Nathan is dating Karel, Nikki's older sister. If anyone reading this knows me they know that Nikki and I hated eachother back during my Junior year and I got into a lot of trouble because of it. My anger and competitiveness took over my better judgement but she drove me nuts. Anyway, this was awhile ago, water under the bridge now right? well, I'm assuming Karel probably doesn't know that Nikki and I apologized to eachother last year. And even if she does know, I don't blame her for disliking me. Regardless, I was trying to be very friendly and cordial and said hi when they walked in but everyone but Shawn ignored I was there and recluded back to their room. Shawn and Samantha talked for awhile, I sat on the couch playing really quietly for an hour before I decided to break the ice about this whole "porno" site that Nathan wants to start.

Let me back up. Samantha called me about this about a week ago. She was very upset and almost crying over the fact that Cody and Nathan want to start a porno business and have a website for it, thus making lots of revenue from their porno business. I was at first ENRAGED.... then.... laughing my ass off, because I realized how crazy the idea was. Cody and Nathan going around getting girls to take their clothes off? And be VIDEO taped doing it? Typical guys inspired by the Girls Gone Wild bros? Ohh man, I immediately told Samantha to just calm down and let it "run it's course," so to speak, because it's not going to work out. I'm sorry guys, I just hate porno.

So yesterday when I brought up this porno thing, I realized how gung-ho Nathan is about this. He's really inspired to make this work, and according to Shawn earlier he had a bunch of plans. So I figured, okay maybe I'm not giving enough faith to this and see exactly what their plan is. My ears and my mind was open. This is what I asked and about the answers I got.

Me: So you guys are starting a porno site? What domain are you using?

N: Redtube, (lists of a lot of different sites), etc... We're planning on uploading small clips and then people can get to our site from there.

Fair enough...

Shawn: What a lot of people don't realize is that a porno website is really a business.

Me: Oh yeah, I understand, for sure... But this is going to cost some money, whats you guy's starting capital into this?

N/S: Which meanssss?

Me: How much money are you planning on investing into this?

N: Well I already have a lot of the equipment...

He explained to me his plan with the cameras, and how there are cameras that can angle at 6 different angles at the same time, the videos montage themselves, and stream directly to websites. I sort of lost track of what he was talking about but got the gist.

Me: Okay... But I should probably let you know that that porno industry itself is sort of dead because there's so much free stuff available on the internet. I mean there are people that get off on uploading themselves having sex just so people watch it.... You pretty much have to have a fetish site to get people to come to it.

N: Well we're going to be doing sort of a fetish site. We're going something called Party Porn, where you go to parties and video tape couples that end up having sex. You go to parties and people agree to do this.

Having never heard of party porn, it was an interesting concept though at the same time it sounded a little bland to me. Regardless, I was surprised and a little impressed that there was a concrete plan here. I looked over at Samantha and she had her head down, looking miserable. The reason that I brought up the porno thing in the first place was to show Sam that she had nothing to worry about.

Me: Huh... yeah never heard of it. So are you guys really in on the party scene here?

Errm... there is a party scene somewhere here in the tri cities... I think it's the rave kids, I don't know, I'm definately not in it.

Cody: No, we're not planning on doing this here.

Nathan: We're planning on doing this up at Eastern.

Nathan then explained to me that he would get approval from girls before the party, let them know it's going on, and ask them if they want to participate. He also told me that he intends to have betting on the site using paypal to bet who gets laid on that given night, and whoever wins the bet gets some of the cash or something.

Me: Are you going to pay the girls?

Nathan:Maybe...

Cody: No... (Cody tries to explain why not on top of why Nathan said why and I didn't catch this..)

Samantha stormed off.

Online gambling is a big deal. The Native Americans have been trying to get online poker legalized for years, and it's predicted to pass this year. I'm not sure if it will or not, but it's a ton of money in their pockets it if does. That being said, online gambling would be pretty hard to achieve.

Interesting concept, but there's some major flaws.

The first is the betting. If you read my little post above, it's obvious that's going to need some major approval if it's legal at all.

Secondly, good luck getting random girls to be in a porno for free, especially if they're sober. AND on top of it, why intelligent college girls? Isn't that going to be a much harder achievement than some dumb bimbos that are in most porno videos?

Oi. I need to stop.

Sorry, needed to rant.

peace.